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dont blame me for not being able to trust u again.
i must emphasize that i am deeply hurt.
or rather, WAS deeply hurt.
wadever, its the same.

you can say u did not do it
but i shall not be able to bring myself to believe you again.
afterall, its not as if i didnt give you chances.
and plus, i admit i am soft-hearted.
which is the reason to why i did not do what i was supposed to the other time.

maybe it was ur friend who told me about it
but even so, u admitted it urself, didnt you?

the part that hurt me most was that u lied about certain things
and that u pretended that u did nothing wrong.
i knoe u apologised, but i must say that until now u do not knoe why i am still pissed.

erm, okay not PISSED but erm.. angry?
well i dont knoe.
u cheated me, okay?
i cannot bring myself to trust u again.
and the fact that everytime i get angry with u u will ask me the same question.
like, u mention it first.
its not as if i said i was going to do that...
u sound as if u didnt mind me doing that.

oh nevermind.
i am just uber unhappy about the fact u are not doing anything.
erm, i mean, that u DONT KNOE how to go around making me happy again.
issit that u dont knoe how to, or u just simply arent trying?
i dont know, only u have the answer.

and obviously, there's always an answer to every problem.
u CAN make me trust u again.
if u didnt knoe that already.
except.. i doubt u knoe how to do it.

that friend of yours is a big mouth.
fine, so i think u are insensitive.
or rather, just to my feelings.
its like sometimes when im angry, u just talk to me as if i was normal.
issit that u didnt know, or u chose to ignore?
i really dont understand why.

ack nevermind.
u probably will be reading this post..
maybe it would be better if u didnt ask me about it?
oh wells.

they are so irritating.
grrrrr.